words and pictures

don’t quite fit

i haven’t been writing here like i used to, and while that’s okay, i miss being able to look back and see glimpses of my thought process. so much has been happening, it’s been a year of many significant things. snippets i’ve put into my journal, pieces into conversation with friends, but a good portion of it has just been whirling about in my mind. so interesting. looking for some peace.

i suppose this is a preface of sorts to an endless slew of phrases and fragments that don’t quite fit. but such is true of me too. 

i’m learning how to carry myself. from the inside out. 

distance

every time i come home there is an explosion of conversation. which would be fine  except there’s so much emotion involved (largely mine—or so i’m made to feel). hardly restful or relaxing. i thought i’d be distancing myself from this by going so far away. but i still have to come back. the problems don’t just disappear. they just stack up.

it’s my fault the process is noisy. but i’m not patient enough to see what silence will bring. 

i’m not a very patient person.

i’m so lost.

Two scientists walk into a bar

The first scientist says ‘I’ll have a glass of H2O”

The second scientist says ‘I’ll have a glass of water too. Wh… why did you say H2O? Like, I know it’s the chemical formula for water and all, but it’s the end of the day and there’s really no need to intentionally over-complicate things like that in a situation outside of work”

The first scientist stares at his drink, angry that his assassination plan has failed.

(Source: tommilsom)

from my journal:

don’t be so lost all the time. shake that scared look off your face. you’re surrounded by awesomeness—not to overwhelm you but to inspire you. to challenge you and to motivate you. open yourself up to more. think of limits as merely markers along a journey. be gentle and be brave.

Morning Air

And lovely memories to wake with. I’m going to miss this moment. Among many this year. A mixture of leftover fear and enthusiastic anxious permeates the calm. Time for breakfast and the treasures of the day.